#runtoheal

While still in the hospital after birthing my stillborn daughter, I had a moment where the thought of Mother’s Day pierced through my heart.  Mother’s Day had turned into one of my favorite days of the year because it was a day dedicated to lots of morning snuggles, lazy breakfasts in pajamas and homemade cards (my favorite!).  I was overwhelmed and deeply struck that my dear Quinn wouldn’t be here this or any Mother’s Day.  I knew I would forever yearn for her snuggles and miss her homemade scribbles and cards.

As Mother’s Day approached, I felt sick to my stomach and fiercely dreaded the impending day.  I knew I would have to lean on my family and friends to get through it.  I asked them to join my #runtoheal movement.  For me, running is the one place where I can feel my grief as love, and not let the grief consume me.  So, I asked others to dedicate their workouts to Quinn and tag them #runtoheal.

Next to Quinn’s memorial, this was the most healing experience since Quinn’s arrival.  It warmed my heart and filled my soul to see how people dedicated themselves to Quinn.  I was honored to be thought of and was energized to get through each day leading up to Mother’s Day.  #runtoheal is my journey that will last a lifetime, and I am honored to be accompanied and supported by so many wonderful people along the way.  I also love the beautiful pictures.  I am touched that each post includes a beautiful picture that reminded them of Quinn.  This is what I have wished for the most - for Quinn's memory to bring beauty to other people's lives. 

Here are some of the #runtoheal posts: 

This morning I dedicated my ride to Quinn. Much love to you, Josh and R. #runtoheal

Took a long walk through these magic gardens yesterday, all the while keeping you in mind. Thank you for inspiring so many with your post, thinking of you and your family! #runtoheal

Dusk walk around the neighborhood to think of Quinn, her Mommy, Daddy and R. #runtoheal.
Love always... xx

Ending this workout dedicated to Quinn at our neighborhood flower carpet #runtoheal

A run for Quinn this past weekend, with mighty Ben as my backdrop. #runtoheal

I went for a run in the Arb earlier today in memory of Quinn Amelia Wilson. I've been thinking of Jessica today -- happy Mother's Day <3 #runtoheal

Taking deep breaths at this sanctuary during my Saturday morning yoga practice. This Mother's Day weekend I am holding beautiful Quinn, who left us too soon, and her mama in my heart. #runtoheal

Dedicated my morning run to sweet Quinn and Jessica who always reminds me i will feel better after a run. "it doesn't matter if you walk...just go!" #runtoheal

Jessica you may not know, but you are a big part of the reason why I run. 7 Years ago you talked me through my first race and I've never forgotten that. Running has shaped so much of who I am. I want to thank you for that by dedicating my run to Quinn today. #runtoheal

Dedicated my morning run today to Quinn! #runtoheal

Dedicating my run to Quinn today reminded me of the importance of quiet in a world that can be much too loud. Grateful for the peace in the May chaos. #runtoheal

Taking in the beauty, thinking of Quinn. #runtoheal

Inspired today I went for a morning run and as the sun rose I knew one of the rays belonged to Quinn...#runtoheal

To my former colleague, fellow runner and sweet lady Jess! I'll never forget our times at the office! Thinking of ya whether I'm running Barcelona or Jersey! Here's to Quinn! #runtoheal

Ran in honor of our precious Quinn and her beautiful mama. With a stop for water in the shade, we quietly carried Quinn's memory along the winding path that I think she would have loved to visit. #runtoheal

This morning I pushed myself a little farther in honor of sweet Quinn #runtoheal